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    Monday, January 3rd, 2011
    6:06 pm
    @@@@@There must be a hundred women in Georgia who
    @@@@@There must be a hundred women in Georgia who would have
    clapped
    the skin off their hands applauding you!" Rosemary considered
    confessing the restShe realized that what she'd said to Scarlett had
    hurt her more than the fight
    Rhett was still chuckling; no sense in dimming his good mood
    Scarlett woke before dawnShe lay motionless in the dark room,
    afraid
    to moveBreathe like you're still asleep, she told herself, you
    wouldn't wake up in the middle of the night unless there'd been a
    noise
    or somethingShe listened for what seemed like an eternity, but the
    silence was heavy and unbrokenWhen she realized that it was
    hunger
    that had wakened her, she almost cried with reliefOf course she was
    hungry! She'd had nothing to eat since breakfast the day before,
    except for a few tea sandwiches at Ashley BaronyThe night air was
    too cold for her to wear the elegant silk dressing gown she'd brought
    with herShe wrapped herself in the coverlet from the bedIt was
    heavy wool and still held in it the warmth of her bodyIt trailed
    awkwardly around her bare feet as she crept quietly through the dark
    hallway and down the stairs
    Thank goodness, the banked fire in the great fireplace gave out some
    heat still, and enough light for her to see the door to the dining room
    and the kitchen beyondShe didn't care what she might find; even
    cold
    rice and stew would be all rightWith one hand holding the dark
    coverlet around her, she groped for the doorknob
    Was it to the left or the right? She hadn't noticed"Stop right
    there, or I'll blow a hole through your middle!" Rhett's harsh voice
    made her jumpThe blanket fell away and cold air assaulted her
    "Great balls of fire!" Scarlett turned on him and bent to gather up
    the folds of wool"Didn't I have enough to scare me witless
    yesterday? Do you have to start up again? You nearly made me jump
    out
    of my skin!"
    "What are you doing wandering around at this hour, Scarlett? I could
    have shot you
    "What are you doing skulking around scaring people?" Scarlett draped
    the coverlet around her shoulders as if it were an imperial robe of
    ermine"I'm going to the kitchen to get some breakfast" she said with
    all the dignity she could musterRhett smiled at the absurdly haughty
    figure she cut"I'll make up the fire in the stove," he sa
    Sunday, January 2nd, 2011
    6:50 pm
    @@@@@ Lavier’s flat was a testament to the world
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    Lavier’s flat was a testament to the world of haute couture chicThe walls were dotted with
    photographs of fashion notables attending important showings and events, as well as with framed
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    334
    original sketches by celebrated designersLike a Mondrian, the furniture was stark in its simplicity,
    the colors bold and predominantly red, black and deep green; the chairs, sofas and tables only
    vaguely resembled chairs, sofas and tables—they seemed more suitable for use in spacecraft
    As if by rote, both Conklin and the Russian immediately began examining the tables, ferreting
    out handwritten notes, a number of which were beside a mother-of-pearl telephone on top of a
    curved, thick dark green table of sorts
    “If this is a desk,” said Alex, “where the hell are the drawers or the handles?”
    “It’s the newest thing from Leconte,” replied Krupkin
    “The tennis player?” interrupted Conklin
    “No, Aleksei, the furniture designerYou press in and they shoot out
    Conklin did so and a barely discernible drawer sprang loose from an all but invisible crack“I’ll
    be damned—”
    Krupkin’s miniaturized radio suddenly erupted with two sharp beeps from inside his breast
    pocket“It must be Sergei checking in,” said Dimitri, removing the instrument“You’re in place,
    comrade?” he continued, speaking into the base of the radio
    “More than that,” came the aide’s quiet voice accompanied by minor static“The Lavier woman
    has just entered the building
    “The concierge?”
    “Nowhere in sightAleksei, get away from thereLavier is on her way up
    “You want to hide?” asked Conklin facetiously, turning the pages of a telephone notebook
    “I’d rather not start off with instant hostility, which will be the case if she sees you riffling
    through her personal effects
    “All right, all right Alex returned the notebook to the drawer and closed it“But if she isn’t
    going to cooperate, I’m taking that little black book
    “She’ll cooperate,” said Bourne“I told you, she wants out, and the only way out for her is with
    a dead JackalThe money’s secondary—not inconsequential, but getting out comes f
    Saturday, January 1st, 2011
    6:14 pm
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    I thought he might protest, but he just nodded and
    went back downstairs, almost trottingThere was a
    new spring in his step - that was surely not my
    imaginationAt the door he said, "Call Nannuzzi
    in the morningDon't let the grass grow under
    your heelsAnd you call me if cheap gucci anything changes
    with your I gestured at his face with my
    paint-stippled hand"You'll be the first to knowFor the
    time being, I can settle for being headache-free"Are you sure it won't come back?"
    "I'm sure of nothingYeah, that's the human condition, ain't it?
    But I thank you for trying And before I knew he
    was going to do it, he had gucci watch bangle taken my hand and
    kissed the back of itA gentle kiss in spite of
    the bristles on his upper lipThen he told me
    adiós and was gone into the dark and the only
    sound was the sigh of the Gulf and the whispering
    conversation of the shells under the houseThen
    there was another soundThe phone was ringing
    x
    It was Ilse, calling to chatYes, gucci for sale her classes
    were going fine, yes, she felt well - great, in
    fact - yes, she was calling her mother once a week
    and staying in touch with Lin by e-mailIn Ilse's
    opinion, Lin's strep was probably so much selfdiagnosed
    bullcrapI told her I was stunned by
    her generosity of feeling and she laughed
    483
    I told her there was a possibility womens rolex watches that I might be
    showing my work at a gallery in Sarasota, and she
    shrieked so loudly I had to hold the phone away
    from my ear
    "Daddy, that's wonderful! When? Can I come?"
    "Sure, if you want to," I said"I'm going to
    invite everybody This was a decision I hadn't
    entirely made until I heard myself telling her
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    Friday, December 31st, 2010
    6:14 pm
    @@@@@ Ian brushed the cloud of golden hair back
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    Ian brushed the cloud of golden hair back from my face and laid his hand on my cheekHis
    hand was so big just the palm covered from my jaw to my forehead; the contact sent a jolt of
    electricity through my silvery skinIt tingled after that first jolt, and the pit of my stomach
    tingled along with it
    I could feel a warm flush pinking my cheeksMy heart had never been broken before, but it had
    also never flownIt made me shy; I had a hard time finding my voice
    “I suppose I could do that,” I whispered“If it makes you happy
    “That's not good enough, actually,” Ian disagreed“It has to makeyou happy, too
    I could only meet his gaze for a few seconds at a time; the shyness, so new and confusing to
    me, had my eyes dropping to my lap again and again
    “I… think it might,” I agreed“I think it might make me very, very happy
    Happy and sad, elated and miserable, secure and afraid, loved and denied, patient and angry,
    peaceful and wild, complete and empty… all of itI would feel everything
    Ian coaxed my face up until I looked him in the eyes, my cheeks flushing darker
    He kissed me, right in front of everyone, but I forgot the audience quicklyThis was easy and
    right, no division, no confusion, no objection, just Ian and me, the molten rock moving through
    this new body, melding it into the pact
    “I will stay,” I agreed
    And my tenth life began
    EPILOGUE
    Continued
    Life and love went on in the last human outpost on the planet Earth, but things did not stay
    exactly the same
    This was my first rebirth into a body of the same speciesI found the transfer much more
    difficult than changing planets because I had so many expectations about being human already
    in placeAlso, I'd inherited a lot of things from Petals Open to the Moon, and not all of them
    were pleasant
    I'd inherited a great deal of grief for Cloud Spin
    Thursday, December 30th, 2010
    6:06 pm
    @@@@@Slowly, one by one, the men struggled across
    @@@@@Slowly, one by one, the men struggled across the river, holding to the vineSome of them lopped their pack straps about it, and pulled themselves along hand over hand, their legs thrashing in the surf of the rapids or floundering anxiously to fend themselves off the rocksThe water would have reached only to their thighs if they had been able to stand upright, but all of them were drenched by the time they reached the other bankThey collected in a little eddy ahead of the rapids, and sat in the water panting, enervated for the moment
    "Jesus," one of them would mutter from time to timeThe force of the rapids had been terrifyingEach of them as he had negotiated the line had expected secretly that he would be drowned
    After a rest of ten minutes they began to march againThere were no more rapids for a time but the river was flowing down a chain of stone ledges, and every ten or fifteen yards they would have to climb a waist-high shelf, tread forward cautiously along a rock platform over which a few inches of water was flowing, and then scramble up to the next ledgeAlmost all of them wet their guns at one time or another, and their grenades, wedged by the spoon handle into their cartridge belts, kept spilling out into the waterEvery few seconds one of them would swear dully
    The river became narrowerIn some places the banks were not more than five yards apart, and the jungle overhead grew so close to the water that it brushed against their facesThey continued on for a quarter of a mile, squatting under the foliage and bellying over the ledgesCrossing the rapids had drained them, and most of the men were too weary to lift their legsWhen they came to a new shelf of rock, they flopped their bodies over the edge and slid their legs up behind them with the motions of salmon laboring upstream for the spawning seasonThe river was dividing into its tributaries; every hundred yards a rill or tiny brook would trickle out of the jungle, and Croft would halt, examine it for a moment, and then move on againAfter his solo across the rapids, Hearn had been content to let Croft manage the platoon again for a timeHe plodded behind with the others, still unable to regain his wind
    They came to a junction where the stream divided in twoIn the jungle, unable to see the sun, it was impossible for anyone but Martinez or him to know in what direction they were travelingCroft had noticed earlier that the larger trees leaned toward the northwest; he had checked it with his compass, and decided they had been wrenched that way in a hurricane when they were youngHe accepted it as a reliable guide, and all that morning as they had moved up the river he had been noting the direction in which they marchedHe guessed that they must be very close to the end of the jungle; they had walked more than three miles, and the river generally had moved toward the hillsBut here it was impossible to determine which stream to follow; both veered off at an angle, and it was conceivable they might meander for miles through the jungle, parallel to the open h
    Wednesday, December 29th, 2010
    6:06 pm
    @@@@@ She saw Rhett with at least three of them,
    @@@@@
    She saw Rhett with at least three of them, but never with Anne
    Hampton
    Scarlett wondered briefly how much the wise old Governors knewAnd it made her laugh to see the
    EllintonsHannah was obviously feeling like the belle of the Ball
    She must be dancing with the biggest flatterers in Charleston, Scarlett
    thought maliciouslyNo, she decided, Townsend looked like he was
    having an even better time than his wifeSomebody sure must be
    sweet
    talking himThey'd certainly never forget this nightFor that
    matter, neither would sheThe sixteenth dance was coming up soon
    It
    was reserved, Josiah Anson told her when they were waltzing, for
    sweethearts and married couplesAt the Saint Cecilia, husbands and
    wives were always newly in love, he said with mock solemnityHe
    was
    President of the Society, so he knewIt was one of the Saint
    Cecilia's rulesShe would be dancing it with RhettSo when he took
    her in his arms and asked her if she was enjoying herself, she said yes
    with all her heartAt one o'clock the orchestra played the last
    phrase of the "Blue Danube Waltz," and the Ball was over"But I don't
    want it to be over," Scarlett said, "not ever
    "Good," replied Miles Brewton, one of the Governors, "that's exactly
    how we hope everyone will feelNow everyone goes downstairs for
    supperThe Society prides itself on its oyster stew almost as much as
    on its punchI hope you've had a cup of our famous mixture?"
    "Indeed I haveI thought the top of my head was going to lift right
    off The Saint Cecilia punch was composed largely of excellent
    champagne mixed with superlative brandy"We old fellows find it
    helpful for a night of dan
    Monday, December 27th, 2010
    6:10 pm
    @@@@@ “Finish it,” said Alex, rushing awkwardly
    @@@@@
    “Finish it,” said Alex, rushing awkwardly back into the bedroom“I’ve got to get the soap out of
    my eyes and restrap my lousy boot
    Bourne picked up the glass, his eyes straying to the Soviet field officer who looked after
    Conklin, his brow lined, his expression curiously sad“You knew him before he lost his foot, didn’t
    you?” asked Jason quietlyWe go back twenty-five, twenty-six yearsIstanbul, Athens, Rome He was a remarkable adversaryOf course, we were young then, both slender and
    quick and so taken with ourselves, wanting so desperately to live up to the images we envisioned
    for ourselvesIt was all so long agoWe were both terribly good, you knowHe was actually better
    than me, but don’t you ever tell him I said soHe always saw the broader picture, the longer road
    than I sawIt was the Russian in him, of course
    “Why do you use the word ‘adversary’?” asked Jason“It’s so athletic, as if you’d been playing
    a gameWasn’t he your enemy?”
    Krupkin’s large head snapped toward Bourne, his eyes glass, not warm at all“Of course he was
    my enemy, MrBourne, and to clarify the picture for you, he still is my enemyDon’t, I beg you,
    mistake my indulgences for what they are notA man’s weaknesses may intrude on his faith but
    they do not diminish itI may not have the convenience of the Roman confession to expiate my sins
    so as to go forth and sin again despite my belief, but I do believeMy grandfathers and
    grandmothers were hanged—hanged, sir—for stealing chickens from a Romanov prince’s estate
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    368
    Few, if any, of my ancestors were ever given the privilege of the most rudimentary schooling,
    forget educationThe Supreme Soviet revolution of Karl Marx and Vladimir Lenin made possible
    the beginning of all thingsThousands upon thousands of mistakes have been made—many
    inexcusable, many more brutal—but a beginning was
    Saturday, December 25th, 2010
    6:15 pm
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    My poor dad would also say, "I'm not interested in money," or "Money doesn't matter My rich dad always said, "Money is power
    The power of our thoughts may never be measured or appreciated, but it became obvious to me as a young boy to be aware of my thoughts and how I expressed myselfI noticed that my poor dad was poor not because of the amount of money cheap chanel purses he earned, which was significant, but
    because of his thoughts and actionsAs a young boy, having two fathers, I became acutely aware of being careful which thoughts I chose to adopt as my ownWhom should I listen to-my rich dad or my poor dad?
    Although both men had tremendous respect for education and learning, they disagreed in what they thought was important to learnOne wanted me to study hard, earn a degree and get a good job to work for moneyHe wanted me to study to become a professional, an attorney or an accountant or to go to business school for my MBAThe other encouraged me to study fendi sale to be rich, to understand how money works and to learn how to have it work for me"I don't work for money!" were words he would repeat over and over, "Money works for me!"
    At the age of 9, I decided to listen to and learn from my rich dad about moneyIn doing so, I chose not to listen to my poor dad, even though he was the one with all the college degrees

    A Lesson From Robert Frost

    Robert Frost is my favourite poetAlthough I love many of his poems, my favorite is The Road Not TakenI use its lesson almost daily:

    The Road Not Taken

    Two roads diverged in a yellow wood, And sorry I omega seamaster gmt could not travel both And be one traveler, long I stood And looked down one as far as I could To where it bent in the undergrowth;
    Then took the other, as just as fair, And having perhaps the better claim, Because it was grassy and wanted wear Though as for that the passing there Had worn them really about the same,
    And both that morning equally lay In leaves no step had trodden blackOh, I kept the first for another day! Yet knowing how way leads onto way, I doubted if I should ever come back
    I shall be telling this with a sigh Somewhere ages and ages hence; Two roads diverged in a wood, and I omega ladies watch took the one less traveled by, And that has made all the difference
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    And that made all the difference
    Over the years, I have often reflected upon Robert Frost's poemChoosing not to listen to my highly educated dad's advice and attitude about money was a painful decision, but it was a decision that shaped the rest of my life
    Once I made up my mind whom to listen to, my education about money beganMy rich dad taught me over a period of 30 years, until I was age 39He stopped once he realized that I knew and fully understood what he had been trying to drum into my often thick black chanel bag s
    Friday, December 24th, 2010
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    He slows himself, rests his head on her shoulder, relaxing, breathing deeply
    How are you now? Are you close, Natalie?
    Her smile againDon't worry about me
    He glides through the passage of several neutral minutes, his mind far away, imagining another childThey had the last one after discussing it and agreeing that they wanted a baby, but now he cannot afford another one, and Jimmy choo handbag he is wondering if her diaphragm has been set properlyHe thinks he can feel it, which worries himAbruptly, he is conscious of the pressure in his loins, the perspiration on his back, and he halts roughly, relaxing again
    How close are you?
    Don't worry about me, Joey
    He is angry suddenlyTell me, how close are you?
    Oh, darling, I won't be able to tonight, it's not important, go gucci g watch ahead, don't mind me, it's not important
    The bickering offends both of them, makes them coldHe dreads his tasteless isolated throe, knows suddenly that he cannot do it, cannot lie afterwards on his bed depressed with failureAnd he leaves her on the bed, and walks over to the window, staring at the drab parchment of the shadeHe is trembling, partially from cold
    She comes up chanel handbags sale beside him, nuzzling her body against his to warm himThe caress is tentative, uncertain, and it offends himHe feels her maternalnessGo away, I don't want aa mother, he blurts, feeling doubt and then dread at the awfulness of what he has said
    Her mouth forms in the blank smile, wrinkles suddenly into weepingShe cries on the bed like a little girlHe realizes abruptly after two and a old omega half years of marriage that when she forms that smile she is close to hysteria and terror and perhaps even loathingThe knowledge freezes in his chest
    After a moment he flops down beside her, cushions her head, and tries to comfort her weeping, his numb hand moving over her forehead and face

    In the morning none of it seems so awful, and by the end of a week he has nearly tiffany replica forgotten
    Thursday, December 23rd, 2010
    6:07 pm
    @@@@@Scarlett only knew that she'd lost most of
    @@@@@Scarlett only knew that she'd lost most of her
    joy in discovering the existence of her cousinWell, I only have to
    have a cup of tea and a piece of cake, and then I can leaveShe
    smiled brilliantly at Jamie"I'm so thrilled to be meeting your
    family that I've taken leave of my senses, JamieI should have
    bought
    a present for your daughter's birthday
    "Aren't I bringing her the best gift of all when I walk in with you on
    my arm, Katie Scarlett?" He does have a twinkle in hiseye, just like
    Pa, Scarlett told herselfAnd Pa's teasing brogueIf only he wasn't
    wearing a Derby hat! Nobody wears Derby hats"We'll be walking
    past
    your grandfather's house," Jamie said, striking horror to Scarlett's
    heartWhat if her aunts saw themsuppose she had to introduce
    them?
    They always thought Mother married beneath her; Jamie would be all
    the
    proof they could ever wantWhat was he saying? She had to pay
    attentionleave off your servant-girl thereShe'd feel
    out-of-place I with usWe don't have any servants No servants?
    Good Lord! Everybody has servants, everybody! What kind of place
    do
    they live in, a tenement? Scarlett squared her jawThis is Pa's own
    brother's son, and Uncle James is Pa's own brotherI won't disgrace
    his memory by being too cowardly to take a cup of tea with them,
    even if
    there are rats running across the floor"Pansy," she said, "when we
    get to the house, you go on inI'll be back directly, you tell them
    You will walk me home, won't you, Jamie?" She was brave enough
    to
    face a rat running across her foot, but she wasn't willing to ruin her
    reputation for all time by walking alone on the streetLadies just
    didn't do thatTo Scarlett's relief they walked along the street
    behind her grandfather's house, not by the square in front of it where
    her aunts liked to promenade under the trees for their
    "constitutionals Pansy went willingly through the gate into the
    garden, already yawning anticipation of going back to sleep
    Scarlett tried not to look anxiousn She'd heard Jerome complaining to
    her aunts about the deterioration of the neighborhoodOnly a few
    blocks to the east the fine old homes had degenerated into ramshackle
    boardinghouses for the sailors who manned the ships in and out of
    Savannah's busy
    Wednesday, December 22nd, 2010
    6:19 pm
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    The Seeker was planted on omega deville watch the sidewalk next to my open trunk, assailing me with snide
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    Sunday, December 19th, 2010
    9:08 pm
    @@@@@Working with the General had its unique
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    Once again, resentment, and the other thing, awe perhapsHearn had never known anyone quite like the General, and he was partially convinced the General was a great manIt was not only his unquestioned brilliance; Hearn had known people whose minds were equal to General Cummings'sIt was certainly not his intellect, which was amazingly spotty, marred by great gapsWhat the General had was an almost unique ability to extend his thoughts into immediate and effective action, and this was an aptitude which might not be apparent for months even when one was working with him
    There were many contradictions in the GeneralHe had essentially, Hearn believed, a complete indifference to the comforts of his own person, and yet he lived with at least the luxuries which were requisite for a general officerOn invasion day, after the General landed on the beach, he had been on a phone almost all day long, composing his battle tactics off the cuff, as it were, and for five, six, eight hours he had directed the opening phases of the campaign without taking a halt, indeed without referring once to a map, or pausing for a decision after his line officers had given him what information they possessedIt had been a remarkable performanceHis concentration had been almost fantastic
    Once in the late afternoon of that first day, Hobart had come up to the General and asked, "Sir, where do you want to set up headquarters bivouac?"
    And Cummings had snarled, "Anywhere, man, anywhere," in shocking contrast to the perfect manners with which he usually spoke to his officersFor that instant the fa?ade had been peeled back, and a naked animal closeted with its bone had been exposedIt had drawn a left-handed admiration from Hearn; he would not have been surprised if the General had slept on a bed of spikes
    But two days later, when the first urgency of the campaign was over, the General had had his tent location moved twice, and had reprimanded Hobart gently for not having picked a more level siteThere was really no end to the contradictions in himHis reputation in the South Pacific was established; before Hearn had come to the division he had heard nothing but praise for his techniques, a sizable tribute for those rear areas where gossip was the best diversionYet the General never believed thisOnce or twice when their conversation had become very intimate, Cummings had muttered to him, "I have enemies, Robert, powerful enemies The self-pity in his voice had been disgustingly apparent and quite in contrast to the clear cold sense with which he usually estimated men and eventsHe had been advertised in advance as the most sympathetic and genial officer in a division command, his charm was well known, but Hearn had discovered quite early that he was a tyrant, a tyrant with a velvet voice, it is true, but undeniably a tyrant
    He was also a frightful snobHearn, recognizing himself as a snob, could be sympathetic, although his own snobbery was of a different order; Hearn always classified people even if it took him five hundred types to achieve any kind of inclusivenessThe General's snobbery was of a simpler orderHe knew every weakness and every vice of his staff officers, and yet a colonel was superior to a major regardless of their abili
    Saturday, December 18th, 2010
    6:14 pm
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    affections worth caring forAnd then, Fanny, the glory of fixing one
    who has been shot at by so many; of having it in one’s power to pay
    off the debts of one’s sex! Oh! I am sure it is not in woman’s nature
    to refuse such a triumph
    Fanny shook her head“I cannot think well of a man who sports
    with any woman’s feelings; and there may often be a great deal more
    suffered than a stander-by can judge of
    “I do not defend himI leave him entirely to your mercy, and
    when he has got you at Everingham, I do not care how much you
    lecture himBut this I will say, that his fault, the liking to make girls
    a little in love with him, is not half so dangerous to a wife’s happiness
    as a tendency to fall in love himself, which he has never been
    addicted toAnd I do seriously and truly believe that he is attached
    to you in a way that he never was to any woman before; that he
    loves you with all his heart, and will love you as nearly for ever as
    possibleIf any man ever loved a woman for ever, I think Henry will
    do as much for you
    Fanny could not avoid a faint smile, but had nothing to say
    “I cannot imagine Henry ever to have been happier,” continued
    Mary presently, “than when he had succeeded in getting your
    brother’s commission
    She had made a sure push at Fanny’s feelings hereHow very, very kind of him
    “I know he must have exerted himself very much, for I know the
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    to in the same way, that a friendship and energy, not very
    determined, is easily put byWhat a happy creature William must
    be! I wish we could see him
    Poor Fanny’s mind was thrown into the most distressing of all its
    varietiesThe recollection of what had been done for William was
    always the most powerful disturber of every decision against Mr
    Crawford; and she sat thinking deeply of it till Mary, who had been
    first watching her complacently, and then musing on something
    else, suddenly called her attention by saying: “I should like to sit
    talking with you here all day, but we must not forget the ladies
    below, and so good-bye, my dear, my amiable, my excellent Fanny,
    for though we shall nominally part in the breakfast-parlour, I must
    take leave of you hereAnd I do take leave, longing for a happy
    reunion, and trusting that when we meet again, it will be under
    circumstances which may open our hearts to each other without
    any remnant or shadow of reserve
    A very, very kind embrace, and some agitation of manner, accompanied
    these words
    “I shall see your cousin in town soon: he talks of being there tolerably
    soon; and Sir Thomas, I dare say, in the course of the spring;
    and your eldest cousin, and the Rushworths, and Julia, I am sure of
    meeting again and again, and all but youI have two favours to ask,
    Fanny: one is your correspondenceAnd the
    other, that you will often call on Mr
    Friday, December 17th, 2010
    6:12 pm
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    Jax turned off the engine, grabbed his medical bag and got out of the carHe walked around the
    hood as the front door opened and a tall man in what appeared to be dark skintight clothing stood
    silhouetted in the frame“I’m your doctor,” said Ivan, walking up the steps“Our mutual friend
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    “I guess not,” agreed Bourne, extending a hand in a surgical glove as Jax approached
    “And I guess we’re both right,” said Jax, shaking hands with the stranger“The mitt you’re
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    “Our mutual friend didn’t tell me you were black
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    “Good Christ, noI like our friend even moreIt probably never occurred to him to say
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    “I think we’ll get along
    Bourne stood ten feet to the right of the desk as Jax swiftly, expertly tended to the corpse,
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    general’s clothing, examining those parts of the body beneath the fabricFinally, he carefully rolled
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    “I certainly can’t guarantee that,” said Bourne
    “Why?”
    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    109
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    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
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    Saturday, December 11th, 2010
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    They're also saying you come from the grand state called GeorgiaIt's
    a place we two hold a fondness for in our hearts, seeing we both
    fought
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    "You did?" Think of meeting someone from home on the road to
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    "Where were you? What part of Georgia? Were you with General
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    "No, ma'am, I was one of Sherman's boysJohnny there, he was with
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    that Scarlett shook her head to clear itShe couldn't be hearing
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    men,
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    of being on opposite sides in a savage war"I don't understand," she
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    ago, and you're friends nowDon't you even argue about the North
    and
    the South and who was right?"
    "Johnny Reb" laughed"What's it to a soldier the right and the wrong
    of it all? Ne's there for the fighting, that's what he likesDoesn't
    matter who you're fighting, long as he gives you a good fight When
    Scarlett reached the Sutcliffes' house she shocked their butler almost
    out of his professional composure by asking for a brandy with her
    coffeeShe was more confused than she could handleAfterwards
    she
    bathed and put on a fresh frock and came downstairs, her composure
    restored
    Until she saw Charles Raglandhe shouldn't be at this party! She
    acted as if she hadn't noticed him"Nan, how lovely you look
    And I just love your houseMy room's so pretty I might stay
    forever
    "Nothing would please me more, Scarl
    Friday, December 10th, 2010
    6:18 pm
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    Wilson was getting restlessHe had been sitting in one place for several hours now, and his mood of contentment was beginning to lapseHis drinking sessions always followed a similar pattern: for the first few hours he would feel happy and benevolent, and the more he drank the more superior he felt to anyone who was not drinkingBut after a time he would feel a need for some external excitement and he would become bored and a trifle soberHe would fidget, become a little agitated, and then abruptly he would leave the bar or the house where he was drinking, and wander away to accept whatever adventures might occurMany times he would wake up the next day in the bed of a strange woman, or in the gutter, or on the sofa in the parlor of his small frame houseAnd rarely would he remember what had happened to him
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    Croft swayed to his feet and laughed againHe had been chuckling to himself all afternoon"I'm gonna sleep," he announced
    Wilson shook his head, and leaned forward, holding Croft's leg"Sergeant -- Ah'm gonna call ya sergeant 'cause you're so goddam chicken -- sergeant, you got no call to be hittin' the sack 'cause it ain't even gonna be dark for an hour yet, maybe two
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    Monday, December 6th, 2010
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    Saturday, December 4th, 2010
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    Robert Ludlum ?? THE BOURNE ULTIMATUM
    151
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    Friday, December 3rd, 2010
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